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Name: andrea lynn
Country: United States
State: California
Metro: Eureka
Birthday: 11/8/1989
Gender: Female
Interests: lizzie, poems, the ocean, wind, clouds,swimming in the rain, clean socks, warm coffee, emo, sceamo, an empty house, snuggling, kisses, the back seat of a car, late night movies, candles, walks, the woods, playing music, my bass, flowers, roses, colors, converses, blankets, lizzie, neclaces, braclets, pictures, paintings, letters, email, talking, love, notes, holding hands, new friends, lizzies room, sand between my toes, coloring on myself, orange socks, pink shoes, wet hair, showers, baths, slow dances, love, lizzies hand on my hip, getting my hair brushed, someone running their fingers through my hair,my empty room,the bands: sublime, the specials, op. ivy hawthorne heights, silverstein, the black maria, the used, dead poetic, story of the year, a static lullaby...a back rub, emotions, hot chocolate, old town, the bay, rivers, my puppy, naps, teenage poetry, lizzie, protests, alcohol, marijauna, sweet revenge, rebellion, hippies, reggae/ska, its becuase i'm so fucking emo, eh?
Expertise: music=life....live it, love it, breathe it, never forget it....
Occupation: Artist
Industry: Art
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  CHEEZIEdoggie123
Yahoo:  vaicio0corazon
Member Since:
4/9/2005
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| now i know who cares....SHEcallsME_sublime, come if you have the slightest interest...i ownt be on here as much.... | | |
| he knows i want to ask him something thats why he's doing all this so he doesn't have to talk to me, all i want is to see lizzie thats it, but no, its always too much to ask...secondly i was driving and i saw shenae, that topped my day, does anyone know how it feels to see someone you absolutly can't not stand and never want to be around ever again? well she was walking so obviously i didn't talk to her but just seeing her made my blood pressure rise, i really actually felt it, i felt all that putrid hate fill me to the brink, i wanted to just lean out the windo when her friend turned around and yell fuck you, you dirty cunt...but obviously i have more class than that around my dad....so practice was good i guess, i added to my wonderful collection of bruises and scrapes, right now i'm just so fucking pissed because he knows i wantto ask if i can do something with lizzie and he doesn't like that, so he ignores, just like when hes mad at me, sometime i have to second guess myself i f i made the right living arrangments, i mean i was so depressed when i live with my mom, you know the usual, bulimia, anorexia, cutting, anxiety, i had to be perfect for her, but now its starting to get like that here, there is so much i just want to get away from, but can't, i guesss this is good in the sense that i shouldn't run from my "fears" but why not, if they hurt you in the long run, why suffer?
but right now i'm just so pissed off i just wanna go cry and lock myself in my room not and not talk to anyone, but...i'm going to keep going up to him untiil he stops ignoring me, until i don't have to just leave....right now i just want to yell fuck, for everyone who has ever made me cry, made life so hard i have just wanted to quite, fuck all of you, you know who you are...believe me you think about it and you'll know...
sometime i hate this fucking planet and everyone in it, just like now, i mean you all can suck hardcore, my mood chsnged so much when i saw that stupid bitch, huh, i hope she realizes that one time she called everword i said was full of complete and utter hate, she'll never read this, i know, but leann will if she reads my myspace, shes always ben a little snitch, but shenae needs to hear, everyone except probably leann hates her, ask anyone, brian, ethan, jessica, the old "gang", and me inpreticular, she can stay in arcata with her plastic life, pretending things are perfect again, you know what shenae, i'm sorry I FUCKED UP your LIFE!i'm sorry you had to leave because i had everything you wanted, the light wasn't on you like it was when you cut youresfl, you didn't have the attention you wanted, or the time when you tried to kill yourself, i got the guys you wanted, you know why? i wasn't a self absorbed wannabe bitch...your life sucked because you chose to make it that way, fuck you, FUCK YOU, you made my life hell, do you have any idea how all that shit affected me? do you knnow how it made me feel? you know i loved you once, not sexual or anything just like pure love, but that was when you knew how to be a friend, i can now say you turned all my love to hate,everything i've learned about breaking hearts, i learned form you, its true, although i 've never done it with the style and grace you have, but i've made lots of plans, based on these mistakes... | | |
| well well its been a couple days, things have been ok, all i've been doing is lizzie and softball(pun intended)...uh my dad gets so upset when i wanna do soemthing with lizzie, so what she the only friend i hang out with(well that they know of) they don't know i hang out with kevin, anthony, chris, and everybody else, but anywho, i really do spend a majority of the time with her, cause point blank thats what i would rather be doing...so i'm wiped out i'm playing on the allstar team and asa(its an amutuer softball thing, you travel alot) so yeah i've been sleepin' not as much as i woud like though, i need to sleep way more cause i have a wonderful year of zero period again next year...wo0t...so lizzie is planning to go to warped tuor, i'm getting pictures of all my favorite bands...i.e. silverstein, etc...and i have like a tournament every weekend and i'm going to canada and i'm taking lizzie we'll be gone for like 2-3 weeks, wo0t! ontario, alberta...here we come and we're ready to P-A-R-T-Y...uh, i have both my bassies with me so i can practice when ever i want...i love my contrabass its so pwretty...i just got new cleats today my other ones were worn down so much i could see the cleats on the bottom anymore, uh, i scraped my knee so bad yesterday i took a chunk out of it, it was so gross, oh yeah lastnight brad called and he was like you guys wanna hang out(i was at lizzies...of course)and we were like yeah, cause we were just watchin movies, so everybody came to pick us up, brad, tori, gossey, david, drew, kevin, and sadly cory wertz and ashley van vuren was there....urgh, oh well we went to old town fucked around then brad scared the shit out of me when he strted doing burnouts and doughnuts and 4bin' down by the docks, holly shit, i think i crapped my pants...i think me and lizzie got back about quarter to one... | | |
| ok so, today really kinda sucked, uh i don't get to see lizzie at all today and its our seventh month anniversary, i mean it really doesn't feel like its been that long, she has just made life so worthwhile, i love her so much, she deserves it all... | | |
| well today is fathersday and i've been cleaning since the moment i woke up, but only me and lizzie know its our 7month so no one else really cares, so i really hope just out of the kindnest of my dads heart he'll let me stay the night over there..... | | |
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